One Summer afternoon I decided to pick blackberries in our backyard for a cobbler. Many small blackberries in the front of the patch were so easy to reach. Unfortunately the big ones in the front had been picked over earlier in the summer, but hundreds of plush, plump blackberries remained on the branches in the far back. After years of overgrowth, reaching these beautiful berries was virtually impossible. Thorn-covered dense branches were everywhere. Getting to these desired berries would mean painful scratches and possible tick bites—neither of which I was willing to encounter to reach them.
But I wanted those berries. My mind raced for outside-the-box ways in which I could get to them, but it seemed hopeless. I just couldn’t do it. I stood there frustrated and whining. It was then--in that moment--that I heard a still, small voice in my mind. Those aren’t what I have for you. Look to your right.
As I looked to my right, I discovered a bunch of new ripe berries that I hadn’t noticed before. Quickly I turned back to the berries I wanted—the inaccessible ones. Somehow they looked bigger and better than the ones right in front of me. But God, I don’t want those berries. I want the other ones. But this is what I have for you and it is good.
Convicted by my discontentment, I immediately began to cry and was flooded by a profound sense of peace. I realized this wasn’t about blackberries. You see I am so much like the Israelites. God provides daily in BIG and AMAZING ways, yet I continue to grumble and complain. I disliked living in Germany. I was convinced this assignment had just been one huge mistake and that everything would be okay if we could just get back to Texas…ASAP!!!
Today I needed to write about this powerful memory. Because in all honesty I still struggle with living in Germany and, yes, we’re still living here. Thankfully I am reminded of God’s promises. He will NEVER leave us or FORSAKE us. His ways really are so much bigger and better. That gives me so much peace and hope.
Lord, in this moment, right now, before you I confess the sin of discontentment and disbelief. Please change my heart, my attitude and my perspective. Please help me to see your plan rather than my own.